Don’t Dream It, Be It

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Song: Don’t Dream It, Be It.  From Rocky Horror Picture Show.  Music & lyrics by Richard O’Brien.

Rocky Horror is the most over-the-top shows that I know.  It’s fun.  It pushes the envelope.  It’s edgy.  It’s fresh.  It also has one of the best themes of the LGBT world.  Just hearing the song’s title energizes me.  Nike put it another way, “Just Do It.”  At certain times in my life, this has been ever important.  I’d like to share some of those times with you.

The first time was when I decided to scrap college at Mansfield University of Pennsylvania.  I was deeply unhappy there.  Aside from friends I made and my first sexual encounter, I hated it.  It was too easy and I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life.  When I got back home after a year of college I eventually made up my mind to stay in the tech sector.  I put my resume on Monster.com and had a job in Pittsburgh in two weeks.  I moved down there from a tiny city in northwest PA and have never looked back.

The company I worked for in Pittsburgh was opening a new corporate headquarters.  They had a webmaster job open up and I decided it would be a good move.  There were more cons than pros, but again I threw caution to the wind and just moved.  I have no regrets about that decision.  I wasn’t going to dream about living in a new land, I just did it.  That job has led to all of the rest.

Within four months I would come out of the closet.  I didn’t even think about it.  I knew that I wouldn’t be happy without being myself.  Dreaming about living out and proud simply wasn’t an option.  I had to “be it.”  So I came out at work and to my family.  Again, no regrets.  I lost friends, yes, like most people, but I don’t regret it.  Sometimes going with a gut feeling works well.  Sometimes it does not.

Don’t dream about the life you wish to lead.  Make the life you want.  Dreaming creates stress which will sabotage your chances.  Have the balls to just take life by the hand and take what you want.  There is only one problem here.  I need to do what I say.  The real problem shows it’s face while writing this post.  I need to reset my life and just make it mine again.